Oscilo...grafie.

Cel mai aiurea lucru este starea asta oscilatorie permanenta. Acum mi-a trecut, dar de tot, acum sunt x( , acum ma iau cu kte o prostie...Acum sunt eu...Acum sunt iarashi eu...Ielele...Se pare ca ar trebui sa am un stetoscop ca sa imi ascult si "frecventza cu care gandesc" ca si asa aia cu care bate inima este suficient de neregulata...Things kinda' suck in here.
Ma consolez cu faptul ca poate chiar sunt usor nebuna. Ar exista o explicatie.Ielele...
Nu vreau decat sa HUG my bear named, in mod sugestiv, Benzen:X..poate ar suna mai bine Tollens?:-?...Si sa ma batzai precum copiii aia mici repetand in mod mecanic cate ceva...sau privind in gol.

Time of death II...empty.ele..ielele...

Time of death:...!
Yes.Indeed. Nunca mas que ahora. Nunca.
De ce?De ce ce?Ce de ce?
Nothing will be the same.Because i can't.
...Another day...IN THE WALL. Useless. Useless. But not painless. Worse failure until now. Hope to be the last one. I didn't desearve this. Anything,but this. If there is something that hurts more than this, is death. But depression is good.
Nu consum energie, nu consum neuroni...Totul este ...Gol. Si goliciunea este un beneficiu. Cand esti gol, esti gata sa umpli spatiul ala, cu orice incape. Nu mai esti selectiv. Deci nu iti mai displace nimic. Acum...cand totul este gol si nimic nu intra acolo, ca o forta inversa celei din gaurile negre, te simti si mai bine. Pentru ca daca esti EMPTY esti usor, daca esti usor, esti...doar tu si putinul care a ramas din tine dupa sange,dupa vomitat,dupa somn,dupa...viata propriuzisa. Este turnul de fildes in care se refugiaza lashitatea proprie, vanitatea, in special vanitatea calinesciana caracteristica,dorintele neindeplinite,pentru ca pe cele indeplinete le-ai aruncat de cum s-au realizat si...altele.
Acum...de ce sa nu vedem idei? Sa jucam asadar in hora ielelor, chiar daca orbim. Sa dormim astfel la umbra unui nuc, sau sa stam sub cerul liber in noaptea de sanziene. Pentru ca acum nimic nu mai conteaza...
Ele...ielele sunt de vina.

i didn't

time of death ....[fill in the blanks]

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new era.

what do people when they are depressed? HIDE. maybe. And deny. MAYBE. Well, i don't hide. I just don't appear. But i certainly don't deny it. And because of that, please do not disturb with silly congratulation,oh how smart are you, how unfair it is how how how.
..E prima data dupa sute de ani, cand nu verific de 100 de ori ce am lucrat. And here we go.
And yes, it's lame. Congratulationz to her, to that girl who has succedeeeeeeed finally to be in front of me on a chem' list. Felicitari, sincer.
Felicitari si celorlalti, but now that you are happy, incercati sa nu pretindeti sa fiu mai happy pentru voi decat sunt UNHAPPY pentru mine, da?
This thing was so stupid it didn't even matter , BEFORE. Now it does...Now it's personal.
And i HATE you all congratulating me , when i don't. I know i am inteligent. And i know i am ambitious. And i know THAT NO ONE helped me like before, "winn....nning" this "praiz". I know it all BY HEART". Enough!.
Someone mentioned something about anti-dep. pills?:X[sunt colorate cu scop anti-emo?]
And btw, in special tu, you sucked when you were all sweet and cuddly saying " but i wanted you to come with me.". Lame.

post.

post'urile anterioare au fost sterse din cauze de cenzura democratica. meibi o sa fie un cahmbec

rehab

Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
You went, left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shot
That spun me around
And now my heart left
I feel so empty and hollow

[Pre Chorus:]
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]
And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I believe

It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

[Verse 2:]
Damn,
Ain't it crazy when you're love swept?
You'll do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me
I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way that I was using you
But now that I know, it's not meant to be
You gotta go, I gotta win myself off of you

[Pre Chorus:]
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]
And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I believe

It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

[Bridge: Timbaland]
Now ladies, gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, now gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Now ladies, gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, now gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, Oh, oh, oh

[Pre Chorus:]
Oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using I believe

It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease